By Andy Corren
100% True Story of Ultraman, Japanese superhero. Ultraman came from
Nebula M78 to Earth. Having captured the evil monster Bemlar, he
was returning to the Space Graveyard when he collided with a Beetle
ship from the Scientific Investigation Agency. Hayata, the most
gorgeous Japanese scientist & pilot in history, was nearly killed
in the crash. A side note: I have been looking for Hayata my entire
life, so if you see him, please feel free to give him my email address.
Sexy pilot and scientist Hayata had a secret. A very, very short
secret. Yes, another detestable stereotype. But Hayata's secret
was that he might have died if Ultraman hadn't shared his life-force
with him. Isn't that totally hot?! From that day on, whenever
Hayata used the Beta Capsule (a long tube one gripped firmly in
the right hand in times of great spiritual or physical need), he
became Ultraman, with Ultraman powers. He fired beams from
his hands, as well as energy rings, anti-gravity power, and, um,
fire-extinguishing liquid. Ultraman could also fly. When Hayata
became 200 foot-tall Ultraman, he was unstoppable -- until the "Color
Timer" flashed wildly on his chest three minutes later. That's
right, he had three minutes to hold onto tube and work his magic.
Then, as if on cue, when his energy was out, he returned back to
human, cute Hayata form. When I first truly understood the legend
of Japanese superhero Ultraman, I knew I was gay.
about the experience of staying with Taki, watching Ultraman, eating
raw beef hot dogs dipped in soy sauce, was desirable. And definitely
sexually confusing. Was it Ultraman's handsome, silver musculature?
Was it Hayata's three minutes of masculine, monster-ass-kicking?
Was it being the son of a vicious, killer absentee father, eating
raw beef hot dogs with an Asian boy in a dirty Japanese village?
It didn't matter -- those weekend trips belonged to one person and
one person alone -- me. That my brothers would dare to
tread on this Holy Communion, would drink the soy of my friend Taki,
was an apostasy to me.
Halloween I had fallen out of the wheel of Futenma Village's fate,
as my hated brother Scott took that yellow dirt road in my place.
I was out of control. With Ultraman strength, I hurled myself at
the chain link fence that separated our white town from their brown
village, howling like a shrine maiden at a village god's injustice.
Melodramatic? Operatic? Yes! To add insult to injury, the
Japanese didn't celebrate Halloween. This bears repeating: Japanese
people did not celebrate Halloween.
Try explaining "no Halloween this year" to a lovesick,
greedy, fatherless, southern gay Jewboy stranded in Japan. I double
dog dare you.
There was an all-night Ultraman-a-thon festival on TV, which mother
promised I could stay up and watch. A small consolation. While visions
of my brother Scott eating beef with my boy husband Taki danced
in my head, I was stuck with my family. Knowing that Taki
wanted me in Futenma. In my mind, his chocolate eyes implored me
to figure out a way to come to him. His bubbly laugh begged me.
But it was no use. It was Scott's turn to take the hand of the twins.
Scott, who sucked his thumb. Scott, who whipped a wire hangar at
my weenie when I was trying to pee in White Lake, inflicting on
me the first in a series of minor penis trauma. I despised my six-year-old
brother, Scott, and all that he stood for, which, at six years old,
admittedly wasn't much more than "Pixie Sticks with Sprite
Tastes Good!" I was resolved. I would do something, anything,
to grab my mother's attention, to sabotage Scott's walk, to take
his place and be rightfully reinstated at Taki's side.
As you might have, first I tried pooping in the front yard. In broad
daylight. Taking a luxurious poop in the afternoon, in your family's
front yard in Japan is an exquisite, liberating thrill that I recommend
to all of you looking for an appropriate outlet for your childhood
anxieties. The correct posture is leaning over, hands touching the
ground, head perched between the legs. From there I could see our
house behind me, through the hard brown rain that fell between my
legs. It had been decorated poorly with what few paltry Halloween
decorations could be mustered from the base P/X. In my mind, I was
pooping on them. My sister spied on me through the kitchen screen,
so, in my mind, I pooped on her, too. Any minute, I knew, she would
barrel out of the house, my furious mother right behind her, and
I would poop on both of them! Poop, poop, poop! Let the entire world
be covered in the poop of a five-year-old's despair!
But with hardly a glance, Cathy shut the curtains, and ignored me
entirely. So. It was to be like that. I saw instantly that I'd have
to work harder. I stood there, alone in the front yard, stewing,
while also trying to figure out how one wipes one's bottom when
one takes a giant revenge poop in one's front yard. For the record,
one uses junk mail.
I tried telepathy, sending mental messages to Taki, mentally willing
him to mentally hear me, holding my Japanese radio close to my ears,
praying over Tony Orlando & Dawn for us to be connected. But
when Jim Croce started to sing about someone named "Leroy Brown,"
I took it as a sign. I failed again. I was by now convinced that
those two smiling, simpering Japanese bitches masquerading as my
friends had, in fact, sabotaged my relationship with Taki, and were
right then, that very minute, installing pee-pee wounding, thumb-sucking
Scott in my rightful place. Desperation grew! And you know what
they say about desperate times.
was after dinner, I remember clearly, because after dinner Mom always
went back to bed, "to read." Which was really code for,
"I'm going to lie on my side with a joint, a trashy paperback,
a can of Charles Chips and a remote control, with the door shut."
Out-of-control with Taki bloodlust, I slipped outside, stealthily
into the night like a love assassin, into our car, a beat up red
Dodge Coronet that usually sat unused. Tiny Yoshi Cabs were the
preferred method of travel over the narrow streets of Okinawa. I
crawled up into the car, placed my hands upon the wheel, and
I don't remember. This is the part of the story where
it gets fuzzy. My last conscious thought that night was that I was
finally free from my family! That I was headed toward Futenma! Towards
Taki! Towards the rising sun. Towards love.
the facts of what happened that night remain under dispute, this
much is true: when I woke up, I was in my father's arms. Wrapped
up safe inside those killer Army arms. Frankly, I was a little scared.
Of course I thrashed about, cried out for Taki. There it was, one
of the only moments I can recall of the Sergeant Major ever touching
me with anything resembling tenderness, and all I wanted
to hug the shit out of a little Japanese boy named Taki. Taki! Taki,
save me! Taki, tasukeru!
Seems I had lashed out while I was in the Coronet, hitting either
the transmission rod that poked out of the steering wheel (remember
those?), or the emergency brake; either way, I hit it savagely,
with all my five-year-old, pent-up, Ultraman strength and rage.
Of course I was unable to take back what I had set in motion, and
the Coronet just rolled down the hill. And rolled. And rolled. Where
it was conveniently stopped. By another parked car.
wasn't the biggest surprise of Halloween in Japan that year. The
biggest surprise was
on me. Instead of spending it with Taki,
and the pretty twin sisters of Futenma Village, I spent it with
the Sergeant Major. My father, the real, live killing machine. He
must have liked how I felt in his arms, because he stuck around
long enough for some scary movies, some hot dogs, some Ultraman
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