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Off the Charts in Tears
By Timber Masterson

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This Dickensian death camp will soon be over, I reassure myself, but I am still on the battlefield, (minefield?) left to my own unpoetic devices: dodging floats; freak show countesses; easily swayed crowds; surreal scenarios; children with sickening festive agendas and their puppet idolatries -- with me off the charts in tears, as I miss everyone this time of year.

Luckily, I'm able to momentarily escape and take a breather. I make my way down a tailored walkway with freshly fallen snow, where I come across another fumbly father-child equation (so many of them) having a snowball fight in their front yard… or they're trespassing. If I could muster up the energy, I'd flag down a cop and report the man for child abuse. I decide to let the whole thing slide, for fear that I, in turn, would somehow get nailed for 'Snowball Possession', a crime that carries the heavy sentence of being forced to watch ghostly videos of past Christmas parades on extra slow-mo-speed.

Fortunately, they are in the giving spirit and donate some of their pre-made snowball artillery to my cause. I pack them down good and tight in my trousers, just in case I really needed to fight the Parade people back with wintery weapons.

Also, moistening in my pocket is a registered reminder of my start time in the yearly Company Winter Olympics. I've applied to take part in the Luge event. Must get that going. Where to practice? And just how am I going to look in my hand-sewn Luge outfit for the event? Hey, this might work out after all. I mean, these kids'll eventually have to abandon those catastrophically useless costumes from the parade, and since I must somehow acquire material - no, that would be sacrilicious...how many sins would that cover?

I hunt down a Black Market sinister mushroom-man with fake blotter-acid who fesses up and divulges the secret location where this whole travesty ends. I hike across town and wait for parade participants back at the starting point: an icy auditorium, scalding hot chocolate, weary parents discussing when they think their crazy children will be arriving back on their shoddy floats, and me lurking in back rooms conversing with profoundly marshmallow-laden costume ladies with too many stories:

"It was New York, the year 1958, a much younger, trimmer Ed Asner was lookin' for a dresser, so I told my parents to go to hell and that I'm cutting this dyke-school-scene to break into showbiz, so then..." I endure Grizelda's bizarre nostalgia in order to procure colorful fabrics, cloths, textiles needed for my uniform in an upcoming sporty project (not to mention some pretty darn funny comedic material).
I end up being arrested and held without bail for trying to lure youngsters away from their costumes with alfalfa salt licks, carrot noses and a half-eaten box of After Eights.

"It's not the kids, I only want their costumes! I'm not some pervert, I just need the material; they don't need it anymore. Unhand me!"

"Tell it down at the station, Gramps."

The arresting officers said I was nothing more than a sour, judgmental presence, but for the life of me I couldn't see it. Nor did I see how such behavior could be considered criminal. I told them calmly that this day somehow reminded me of finely chiseled crystal coffins whizzing down an Arctic icy racecourse. Sour, maybe. Judgmental, never.

They transported me to a cold, damp igloo of a hollow-minded police station; the snowballs not confiscated in the arrest are melting down my trousers. I try to make a game out of it, but it's all turned awfully unfunny; thoroughly-iced-genetalia going numb with the rest of me, hungry corrupt constables staring at me, eager to cross examine, to extract 'the truth' from my mind's eye. I'm melting and starving, just having missed the once-a-day snack allowance. Pockets deep with regret, like snowmen who've gotten off at the wrong stop and forgotten their extremely odd-shaped-underwear not prepped properly for the all-too-humid and airy aroma of an early thaw.

Where DO crafty snowmen go in springtime? Oh, they have places, you just have to look.

All this I had scribbled down on a notepad, scrunched somewhere in my back pants pocket, now lost or stolen. I bet it was one of those Goddamn cherubic-float-riding kiddies just back from eating entire cotton-candy-floats, who gobbled up my Life Notes, testing to see what's edible and what isn't at their after-party: appetites insatiable, unquenchable thirsts. Never satisfied.

Okay, maybe I have done that. But I'm not like them. I'm not like anyone.


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